New Year of Perception Coming Soon...

Fret not...my 5 little followers....I will return in the New Year with more posts, fresh ideas, and lots of eye popping.

Happy New Year!!!

My eyes don't pop!

I'm not a fashionista or a make-up artist, I'm me...I have a first edition of Emily Post....I dress modestly and simple...I prefer blacks and greys to orange and fuchsia. I prefer clear lip gloss to red lip paint. I wear very little if any make-up, I don't need it, I'm not trying to conceal or blend anything, not that my skin is perfect, but it is clear, soft and supple...lol... I don't stand out in a crowd, but once I smile, I am seen, by those who need and want to see me...
Last week, I was told by a ..."woman" that I need to wear some different eye shadows because I wear the same color everyday and "it don't match everything". Here I am, sitting and listening to a "woman" that piles make-up on her face and needs a drill to get it off. She arrives to work at 7:30am (hours are 8-5) just so she can put on her mask. The results...a mess...her skin is a crayon brown, but she wears an orangey foundation, her eye shadows match her hair, her shirt, her socks and probably her bloomers. From the tip of her eyelid to the top of her eyebrow there is a color...a lot of different colors. Glued on eyelashes, bright colored twitch (those that know her know what I mean), and blonde weave. Reminiscent of a laid off drag queen, but she was, supposedly, born a woman.
So, I guess my mild colored eye shadow was not enough for her...she states "you eye shadow should match your hair" WTF!! Is that what your doing..OK... in that case I'm doing pretty good my hair is a mixture of browns (naturally).
She offered to do my make up for me one day!! In the great words of Miss Sophia (Color Purple) "I said, Hell Naw", she not about to drag me up!...lol...

Hey, we can't all do it like she do it!
My lips is popping if my eyes ain't...lol

"Victory of Faith Over Fear"

It's the second day of the new year in this country. I leave my home and get into my car and start driving. I pass by the local prostitute and smile, I pass the local homeless man and nod. I turn out onto the main street of Candler Rd. and the man in the 4 door Cadillac Escalade sitting on 24's merges into the lane I am turning into and blows his horn at me, I smile. Today, the world seems different. I look at colored people differently. I feel a sense of tolerance and pride. Tolerance for ignorance and misguided dreams and Pride in this country for FINALLY stepping up and giving EVERY man right of hope.

I have the hope that President (-Elect) Barack Obama will be THE influence that this country, my country, needs. That Obama, will be a role model to the wayward youth and the lost man. Integrity, we have missed you and now with continued hope we will have you back.

I rejoice with all the other Black people in the nation, I am so profoundly happy that a black man will be President (wow). I am even happier that is not Republican Bush or Republican McCain...after 8 years of crap and conservative bullshit...Democrats are back where this country needs them to be.

What a HISTORIC WIN!!!

Finally, a Black man my Son can look up to.

Thank you Oh Great Father in Heaven! Thank you!

Now, who's going to Washington in January?!?!

"What are they doing?"

Okay, I have polled a couple of my friends and a queen fag hag to find out
what different definitions for fag hag are out there...
..."has to be a straight girl"..."females that run with gay men."...straight women that only have gay men as friends" " have to be with he gay boys 24/7"It goes on and on like that for ever. I found my perfect definition at Wilkapedia.com ...outgoing women who are seeking a substitute for heterosexual relationships, or who are secretly sexually attracted to the gay
men they hang out with.
I am going to TRY and be as vague as possible... as to not "offend"...lol... I do not understand this new click of fag hags that have been adopted by several associates of mine. They are cute, somewhat physically attractive (only one is MY type, thick and yella, LAWD!!) and seem to be smart. They are loads of fun and a hoot once they start drinking, but all those qualities got me to thinking. I thought black, heterosexual women like to go out and pick up men that they
KNOW will fulfill their every desire...to date, get attention, and be petted
by...If every Saturday, instead of trolling the corners at 112 or whatever the
popular straight club of the moment is, you are at gay boy parties and gay
boy clubs in gay boys laps then you have to be a little more invested. I hang out with the
boys, but not EVERY weekend. I need my female fix... LESBIAN female mix. Watching the straight gals run around pulling each others hair, bumping and grinding on the limp cocks and occasionally each other (mild porn), and drinking it down is quite entertaining.
There could also be another reason that the entourage is at EVERY party.
Let me just put it out there, mooching!!!! Gay men throw great parties and
have a lot of fun and most of the time, there is food and drinky drink and they have only been hanging hard since we went into recession...lol...something to think about.
So, the parties going, the hags are sloshed and trying to bump and grind with tha Boyz. All I'm thinking is "no boo, you can't make him miss what he don't want"...lol...I mean unless he is dippin in some kitty on the side. Hmmm, that's an interesting thought. How gay is the hag leader? Everywhere see him the entourage is not far behind and sometimes they are there
"checking the perimeter" before he even arrives...lol...wtf?...In all seriousness. Take a weekend off from the gay life and enjoy the benefits that heterosexuality has to offer. Like... um,....um, um, well I don't' know but you should so give a straight man a chance...lol...

Thoughts about the breakup...

I received a special request today...He said " Mable, you should start another blog, I would really like to read what you think about OTHER things." I thought about it for a couple of hours and have decided to give it a try... After all weight loss is not the only thing that affects a Lifestyle change, feelings and emotions do too.

I am beginning this by saying, I like to write, but i don't ever know what to or where to begin...I love poetry but I don't want to write it...I want to be informative and opinionative...lol...inside joke with myself...

Anyway, my relationship of 2 years has ended...I am on the road to a greater state of mind and sound judgement. It was a very hard and complex relationship...we were very good friends but not very good at the loving... She was in love with me and I was in love with her but the actions behind the love were absent...when the end came we both knew it was The End...I have no regret or hard feelings...just fear thatall fututre relationships will be like that one and a lot of sexual supression. She is a very beautiful person, but has quite of bit of self discovery ahead of her. I wish her the best. She, however, feels as though I am to happy too soon...Meaning, I am not crying, I am not trying to get her back, I smile everyday, hang out and basically, it has been business as usual. Well, it IS business as usual. I am a big girl, we grew apart long before the relationship ended, so by the time the end finally came there was no reason to cry.

For some apparent reason, because I am at peace and in an adult frame of mind, she thinks that I have moved on too easily or the I am seeing someone else...LOL... Why do people assume that because THEY are sad and crying we should ALL be sad and crying...I don't need to have someone else fucked up in my life in order to smile and thank God for my blessings. I am alive healthy and in a totally different place than I was when we met. I used to feel incomplete, unless I had someone else to hold...well now that's what pillows are for and I have 4...lol...


"Yes I was burned but I call it a lesson learned" " My soul has returned so I call it a lesson learned"..best song AK has on her most recent album.