March 17, 2009

The backlash...The claws came out...


"I went to McDonalds, because I am trying to budget, until I get paid on the 31st!!!!!!!"


"Everyone can't afford to eat Chipotle and P.F. Chang everyday like you!!!!!!!!!"


"lol.... just finished reading the new blog entry.... very interesting observations...discuss... "


"Just thinking about my “so called” friendships and trying to get a better understanding about my role, if any. "


"think it just a slight misunderstanding... outside view of the situation... "


"I do think we should have a group discussion about this. I have to say that I do think you may be a little over sensitive. I’m still the same old person that I was before. The only difference is that we don’t see each other everyday because we don’t work together. You seem to have forgotten about the times that we have invited you to places but you could not come. I know when people get into relationships, they seem to distance themselves from other people. I don’t feel like you did that, but I do feel like that’s the person that you are going to spend the majority of your time with. When things are good with them, you may forget about the way you and your friends are communicating, but when things are not as good as you may want them to be, you may remember the communication that you and your friends used to have. NO shade, just a different situation. ……. To be continued. Gotta go to the bathroom. "


"I'm speechless right now, I am sorry if I upset you. We do have history, but whenever we try to get you to hang out, you always tied up with BG."


"WHATEVER, that is so untrue, when we hang she is there,"


"It is D, no majority of the time, you always say well me and BG got this planned."


"plans are plans when you have planned stuff I dont expect you to stop drop and be with me"


"I also think that we all are going through some changes and are dealing with things in our own way as well. I agree with you about us not have talking for a while. I can say that we have not talked since you have left home depot. "


""Absolutely, however, not all relationships effect friendships. B and I have no problem keeping in touch and making TIME to hang. YOU however have been quote unquote distant since the week before the cabin trip and far worse since you came back. Q, well, there are no words for the McDonalds incident… I expect more from you 2 than I do G or G or B…You two are in my speed dial…"


"Child……ok lets talk about it. since I have became your friend. I can look at my phone bill and say that we have never really talked on the phone. I could see if we have talked on the phone daily or even weekly for that. And I don’t think that we got distance before the cabin trip at all. And to be honest, I have kept to myself since I came back because I have been working hard and dealing with family issues."


"Ok talk about it…Check home depot phone records and ur texts record…I completely understand your family issues I USED TO HEAR ABOUT THEM"


"I’m talking about before you left homedepot"


"I guess I was being a little sensitive, for absolutely no reason. Perhaps there was never really a “friendship” at all. I was mistaken and therefore, I over stepped. Let me excuse myself. Good day."


"This is the first thing that I always ask people to look at when they say someone is not doing something. If someone says that you have not talked to them in a while, ask yourself when was the last time you called them? If someone says that you are not a good friend, ask yourself, when was the last time I did something for that person? This is valuable information people. I cherish all my friends. Energy. "


"Energy please…like I said…I nurtured and fertilized…and like I just said, I was mistaking this as friendship. I digress..Deuces"


" So I ask you, since you feel that I’m such a bad friend and you fertilized, tell me what you have done exactly that I have not?"


" K.I.T"


"think this is a good time for everyone to sing "because you loved me" by Celine Dion....on three" (Cyrus you a fool...lol)

Understanding...Philings...


Is is hard for Lesbians and Gay men to have close friendships or am I being sensitive?
Where to begin?
People that know me know that I have several guys friends that are "fam". Over the last year I have grown very close to and love a few. I felt as though I had learned what friendship means. We have shared some good times, some tears and some break ups. Lately,however, I feel as though my "love" has been in vain. I have kinda felt like I have been doing more of the nurturing and fertilizing of the friendships (except with BFree, smooches). I kinda feel like I have been kicked to the curb. Now, don't misunderstand, a few of the guys I don't kick it with often, we talk when we need to, we love when we are together. Two of my boyz (let me just put it out there) seem to have forgotten my existence. They don't call, email or text like they used to. They have time to hang with each other, but hardly with me. Yesterday, I found my philings hurt, which is quite surprising cuz I am quite the little gansta...lol.
To start, I ask my "friend", OF MANY YEARS, what was going on for lunch (he eats out almost everyday and usually with our other friend) and to let me know. At 5mins til lunch time he announces that he is going to MCDONALDS!!! I was fucking floored...WTF!! Do I look like a 6 year old?? Why we can't go to the mall, PF Chang or Chipotle!? Ok, Flag on the play, 5 yard penalty...

My other little buddy I had to go spend some money (and enjoy a tasty dessert) just to be in his company..."hey, how are you?" "How's work?" " How can I get back on the email chain?" Hell, when did I get bumped off that bitch, for that matter?!? This is how I got my Philings hurt for the 2nd time yesterday...Wait for it, wait for it... " Oh, can you send me an email, your email address got erased?" Really? Fumble...

Maybe its me... maybe I am taking it way too personal...maybe I am being a sensitive ass female... Maybe, just maybe I have to have a fuckable penis to be in THAT club.