Tomorrow is my 33rd birthday (bah humbug) Reflecting on the last year I
wonder; What will be different over the next year? A lot has
happened in my world over the last year. My children have grown
and my relationship with them has grown... a "serious" relationship failed, for the better....and new possibilities are blooming.Instead of being stuck in limbo wondering what to do or how to go on I'm thinking about how to prosper and how to make my children's lives a little easier....I am also thinking about love and what I had/have been missing while being wrapped up, trapped, settled in a dead end relationship. The more I think about where I was, the angrier I get with myself because I should have and could have let go a LONG time ago...I was settling. She didn't touch me, caress me, kiss me, sex me, desire me or trust me...and I was going to settle.
wonder; What will be different over the next year? A lot has
happened in my world over the last year. My children have grown
and my relationship with them has grown... a "serious" relationship failed, for the better....and new possibilities are blooming.Instead of being stuck in limbo wondering what to do or how to go on I'm thinking about how to prosper and how to make my children's lives a little easier....I am also thinking about love and what I had/have been missing while being wrapped up, trapped, settled in a dead end relationship. The more I think about where I was, the angrier I get with myself because I should have and could have let go a LONG time ago...I was settling. She didn't touch me, caress me, kiss me, sex me, desire me or trust me...and I was going to settle.
I had absolutely no reason to stay...When I think about it...it was dam near a mentally abusive relationship. I took care of her when she lost her job and supported her when she was depressed. I cheered for her when she found a job. I cooked,cleaned and petted. It was like I had 3 children. I did it and I did it because I wanted to because I was in love... She never initiated sex, never wanted sex and would blame me for the reason why we didn't have sex. I coped with and suppressed my need and desire for sex and it changed me... When she would get mad at me for dumb shit I would take the charge and beg for her forgiveness, even when I didn't feel I had done anything wrong. I stayed faithful because I was committed to the relationship and I never wanted to hurt her.
The bitch mojo was off the chain!!!!!!!...I was pussy whipped off
pussy I was hardly ever getting. Comfort is a bitch...lol
Thank you Dee for not fucking me because BG is the best fuck
EVER!!!!!!
